Don't lose yourself through the chaos...

"Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes & believe in                                    yourself & love yourself to become a new person."  Gerald Way

This week has been a tough one for me. Not because Arlie had a tough one, she was so happy this week. It was actually a great week for her. Why do I feel this way then? I felt so overwhelmed with life this week. I think I finally had that moment of "What's coming next?" Things are going smoothly. My days consist of taking care of Arlie's needs, sanitizing A LOT, answering some clients when I get the chance, go for a walk, eat. Then it kind of starts all over again. How long will this very repetitive life last? I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel this week & it's HARD. When will I not worry about fever and germs, Arlie's immune system & what these meds are doing to her little body? Just so many questions and feelings every.single.day.

I've realized this week, I've kind of lost myself through this chaos. I've given every bit of me to Arlie, physically and mentally. EVERYTHING. "Have I taken care of myself" hasn't been a question I've asked myself in a very long time. I realized I've got to start keeping a little for myself. So I can be the best version of myself for her, my husband & the rest of the people I love and care about. It's not selfish, it's NECESSARY. 

I've realized life is short & we have to do all the things we've always wanted and need to do for our happiness. So starting today, mama gonna take care of herself. Maybe brush my hair & teeth everyday, #momlife. Take a moment of quiet time for myself, or maybe give myself the ultimate me time and go to Target & just walk the aisle in silence. I'm important too.

If we neglect taking care of ourselves, we can't take care of others.